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 TECHNOLOGY
Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
Nothing, I made it all black

Q. How many televisions you have in your house?
3 , one in our room, bev's room and living room

BIOLOGY
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right.

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
two babies and some tissue

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
Thomas in his car seat

Q. Have you ever been knocked out?
Depends on how you mean, in a fight no, in the operating room, yes

BULLSHITOLOGY
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
No.

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
I wouldn't

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
I used to look good in red, but I hate reds and pinks, so usually wear blue

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?
no

DAREOLOGY
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
no

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
No!

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000
yes

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
no

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1,000?
nope

Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
Hell no

DUMBOLOGY
Q: What is in your left pocket?
no pockets

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
never saw it

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
carpet

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
Stand

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
1

LASTOLOGY
Q: Last person who texted you?
i don't know, been about six months

Q: Last person who called you?
Tom as well

Q: Person you hugged?
Jon

FAVORITOLOGY
Q: Number?
15

Q: Season?
spring

Q: Color?
Blue

CURRENTOLOGY
Q: Missing someone?
yes, Noah and my mom and family

Q: Mood?
Happy

Q: Listening to?
Tom talk

Q: Watching?
7th Heaven

Q: Worrying about?
Noah going to second grade

Q: Wearing?
black slacks and tank top

RANDOMOLOGY
Q: First place you went this morning?
Diaper basket

Q: What can you not wait to do?
get married

Q: Do you smile often?
now adays, I have alot to smile about

Q: Are you a friendly person?
yes

 Stephen Kings, The Mist, is the WORST movie I have ever seen.  Until tonight, Hostel was the worst movie I ever saw. 

Sorry, no pictures of the dress.  But, the invitations are out.  Bouquets are made.  Boots are bought.  Church is booked.  The building in Oakland City is reserved.  However, we are unsure now about where the reception will be.  There is the downstairs to the church.  There is the Glezen Life Center.  And there is the building we reserved in Oakland City.  But, we didn't put reception location on the invitations, just the church.  Soo, we can figure all that out at a later date.  We do have four months, and everything else is in order.  I figure Papaw will just announce that there is a reception whereever it is at when he concludes the ceremony.

Got  my dress and all the accessories

Got Noah's and Jon's suits, shirts, and noah's tie.  have to get jon's tie

It is going very smoothly 

 Wedding will be August 31,2008 at 3 pm

In Petersburg, Indiana

The ceremony is at the church Mamaw Jewel went to. 

The reception is in the small building in Oakland City immediately following the wedding. 

Invitations will go out in the next month.  


This is the ring Jon bought me.  3/8 carrot diamond.  And 35 diamond chips

Ok, So, Jon asked me to marry him.  Bought me a diamond ring and all that fancy stuff.  Ok, so it seems a bit fast right?  Well, it is quite fast.  Jon has been my best friend for a little over a year, though.  He has been there for me through the worst of times.  When I cry, he cries with me.  He has been patient with me.  He has held my hand and helped me get through things that I wasn't strong enough to get through on my own.  He takes care of us.  He loves Noah and Thomas as his own.  He loves me!!!  And I love him.
 
Ya know, things about Chris.  I filed for divorce in February of 2006.  And I let Chris talk me into staying.  After I lost the baby in April, I told Chris I was done.  I woke him up screaming.  And he said oh no, you're fine.  I showed him what was going on, and he says, "That's what you get, you killed the baby."  Then he made me wait for 20 minutes while he got dressed, and then we get out to the car, and I go to the passenger side, and he comes around and says, "Oh, no , If I have to go, I'm not driving.  And he left the hospital and went back to the house to play video games.  WILL came and got me from the hospital, bringing me clean clothes.  He took care of me the following week.  He got my meds filled, he made me food.   And I started seeing Will.  But again, Chris cried and told me how much he wanted his wife back, and I fell for it.  On August 1st, we were staying at Chris's dads while we were fixing the trailer up.  We got into a fight and Chris though me on the ground in front of his dad, Bryant and Noah.  WHILE I was pregnant with Thomas.  Later in August, after we moved into the trailer, Chris left me and moved in with his dad for a couple days.  Leaving me pregnant, without transportation, and without food.  Do you know why we never had any food??  Chris ALWAYS had his pops for work and his tv dinners he heated up at work.  But I couldn't even eat his tv dinners because we didn't have a microwave.  Chris didn't care if Noah and I had food.  He would tell me feeding Noah in the evening was my problem, because he would be at work.  Jon ordered us pizza quite a bit and made sure we ate. 

The night before I left Indiana and moved to Texas.  I woke up to Noah screaming.  He was sleeping in bed between Chris and I.  And Noah moves in his sleep.  He propped his foot up on Chris.  And Chris got frustrated, and started shaking Noah.  I woke up and hit Chris upside the head with whatever I could get my hands on.  I think it was a shoe, it was pretty dark.  Anyhow, Chris and I got into a huge fight, and I started having contractions, and the hospital there said that there was nothing they could do about it.  Jon was in Indiana the next night, while Chris was at work.  He researched hospitals down here and found out that Scott and White has a level 5 neonatal unit.  One of the only three in the country.  So, I came down here with Jon.  I had initially planned on going back to Indiana once I got past a certain point in pregnancy.  But after being down here and being treated the way Jon treats me, I began to wonder how I could ever go back.  No fighting.  No 24 hour computer games.  No porn or match websites.  No hitting.  Someone who cared as much about Noah doing well in school as I do.  Someone who modified his ENTIRE life in order to take care of my kids and I.  

And After Thomas was born, I opened my heart to Jon.  And he isn't like any other man I have ever met.  He has his flaws, but who doesn't.  But none of his flaws include abuse.  He works hard.  He went out and got a second job to make sure we had everything we need and ensure that I can stay home and take care of Thomas.  And he still comes home after a long day, and takes time to talk about our day, and rubs my back or my feet.  Even though I should probably be rubbing his since he is the one who works outside the home.  

So, am I moving fast??  Yes......... Is it to fast??  I don't think so  

 I like Jon's answer!!

On a yacht in the port of Tampa.  

Cruising around the world, jetskiing, sailing, fishing.

Well, I called Chris yesterday, got into a fight with his new whore who answered the phone.  She refused to let me talk to him.  I said she didn't have a choice but to let me talk to him.   She said, "what don't you remember me?"  I said yes I do, you were the whore always flirting with all the guys right in front of your husband.  (She used to work at Bax Global, where I met Chris).  And She says to me "Yes, I did, I used to F#% men in front of my husband, Because that is what he likes."  Soo, I finally get Chris on the phone, and he tells me not to call her a whore, I told him I just calls em as I sees em, and she blatenly admitted to being a whore.  I ended the conversation with Chris by wishing him luck in not getting herpies or aids.  

Anyhow, the point is, after talking to Chris and calling the court, I found out the final hearing is NOT UNTIL freaking the end of May or beginning of June.  If there is a trial between now and then, it could be pushed back even further. 

If I go file in the state of Texas, I would get child support on both Noah and Thomas, as well as alimony.  

 

 Thomas pooped on his own today.  First time he has pooped without a suppository in 7 weeks.  And it has been 6 days since he last went.  

I got a really bad bad bad sunburn all over my body, legs, arms, shoulders and neck are REALLY BAD.  Lotta pain.  But I have a residential fishing license in the state of Texas

 

I got a job at K-mart working 10pm-2am.  Then hopefully Jon can stop putting miles on our car at Pizza Hut.  If he still feels we need more money, he can work at K-mart the same hours with me.  And Bev can stay with the kids for those four hours.  

Noah is ok, we have discovered another medical issue with him,  but we are doing what we have to do to take care of him.   He is going to be fine, so don't worry, but I am not going to discuss it.   

Thomas is more and more aware of things.  He is quite active.  

I wish mom could have stayed longer.  But life happens.  What can ya do?  I think she was proud of the life I have now.  At least she wasn't scrubbing the floors.  

Tell Bill that I said Happy Birthday.  And Happy Anniversary Jenny.

Well,  we took Thomas and Noah into the doctor yesterday.  Noah has an inhaler for asthma, and he is going to ear nose and throat guy on March 19th for tubes in his ears.  Jon is going to remake another appointment for Noah to get albuterol for the nebulizer.  And Thomas is colic and has food allergies to whatever I am eating. 

Mom and Landon are at the airport waiting to fly away and come see me.  Steven has a cold, but he pooped in the potty last night for Jon's mom while we were at Wally world.

  took Noah to the er at midnight and got out at 6 am. The kick is, only two people were there before Noah, they had a dozen empty rooms back there and I sat and watched the doctor sit on his ass and not see a single patient for over two hours. He was just gossiping with the nurses.

Anyhow, the nurse came in to discharge Noah and i said, what about his ears. The nurse said, oh the doctor says his ears looked good. I said, that's funny, he didn't even look in his ears. And she stumbled all over her words after that, and got the doctor. Sure enough, another ear infection, which I already knew, he has had so many the I KNOW when he has another one. They gave him a suppository for nausea, BUT HE HAS DIARHEA. What idiots. So, I am going to take him to his pediatrician tomorrow. Stevie and Steven are on the way.   Landon and mom will fly in on thursday, and only have a couple days, but at least I will be able to get a hug and she can see Thomas.

Jon has the stomach flu that Noah has. So, we anticipate the baby getting it. Going to take both the boys in tomorrow. But life is so fun. I woke up a little bit ago and can't hardly catch my own breath, my chest feels very heavy.

Anyhow, Landon is breathing on his own and doing better, not sure if they moved him out of icu yet though or not. I hope he is better by his birthday. He is going to be two next Monday.

David has the heart problems.  I took Noah to the hospital at midnight, and we got home around 6 this morning.  And the hospital totally sucked.  They told me to send him to school today.  I said are you freaking crazy.  The nurse came in to discharge Noah and I asked about his ears.  And she said the doctor said his ears looked good.  I said, " Oh yea, that's funny, he didn't even look in Noah's ears."  She went and got the doctor, and sure enough, I was dead on, another freaking ear infection.

And Jon's mom finally got the doctor to give something for nausea, and low and behold they give him a suppository.  He has DIARHEA, and they want me to shove something up his butt??  Get freaking REAL.  Bev, Jon's mom, also got them to FINALLY write a doctor's note excusing him from school today.  

There were only two people in the er when we got there with Noah.  I made Jon stay home and sleep.  And I sat there and watched the doctor not move from his damn desk for over two hours.  He didn't get up and see a single patient for two hours.  Dozen of empty rooms in the area we were in.  They just decided to make us sit and wait while they gossiped and ate and everything else.     

Stevie and Steven are on their way. 

Noah has the stomach flu now.  What do I give him??  How do i make it better??  Do I keep him home from school yet again??  He has missed so much school it is unreal.

Landon got admitted to the hospital with pneumonia this evening.  So mom's flight is a bit delayed, but it seems to be working itself out.  Stevie and Steven are still coming tomorrow as planned.  

Uncle Donny and Aunt Barb slid on ice this morning and got into a horrid car accident.  Aunt Barb is just bruised, Uncle Donny broke his spine.

Jon and my friend David got taken out of church this morning in an ambulance.  Something with his heart.  He was transferred to Metroplex from Darnell because Darnell doesn't have a cardiologist.  

Anyhow, I wigged, and am now feeling a little better.  I want to see my mom though.  I called Delta directly and they waived the fees to change mom's ticket date.  We just pay the difference in ticket price.  Which will be only 7 dollars if i rebook her tonight for wednesday.

Noah had a HORRIBLE week at school.  I haven't had any time with him this week.  Squeaker and I have been sick.  I am starting to feel better though.  Jon is the last one to come down with the illness.  But I think he will be better quicker than the rest of us.  Bev has been taking care of Noah.  I haven't hardly done anything as his mother in weeks.  But I have tried to make time with him here and there.  But I don't think it is quite enough.  I don't know how to budget my time anymore.  I am always worn out and constantly in the bedroom taking care of Thomas and sleeping in shifts of ten minutes here, half hour there, five minutes here, etc.  Anyhow, I better find something for Noah and I to do for a little while. 

I have the upstairs neighbors SHIT on the floor of my bathroom and in my tub.  We called at 8 am to say hey, we need a plumber, we called again throughout the day.  I went to the onsite managers house twice tonight, she insists that there is nothing she can do.  Here it is, midnight, and the tub and toilet just keep overflowing.  I contacted the apartment complexes plumber, and he says, no they haven't called, he tried to get in touch with one of the maintenance men, but was unable to.  And of course, if he doesn't get approval from an employee, he can't come out because he won't get paid.  We plunged the toilet two dozen times or more between Jon, Bev and I throughout the day, and now the toilet is just plum unplungable.  I am soo fucking pissed off, I want to tear someone's hair out.  THEY SHOULD HAVE HAD SOMEONE HERE AT 8 THIS MORNING WHEN WE FIRST CALLED.  There are four apartments in this building, and WE HAVE THE SHIT IN OUR BATHROOM OF EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO LIVES IN THOSE FOUR APARTMENTS.  THE SMELL IS FUCKING WONDERFUL.  Not to mention the diseases that come with. 

Baby has  a cold, Noah is home sick from school with a cold

Jon gave me earrings and a necklace for Valentine's.  I wasn't very nice on Thursday and refused to open his gift until later in the evening.  I haven't ever really gotten a gift from any man before.  Chris NEVER has given me a gift.  I was pretty upset that Jon bought me something.  I asked him why he had to get me a gift today of all days, and he said because valentines is the day you show the person you love that you love them.  And of course, me being me, I pushed it and asked why people only choose to show their love on valentines, why couldn't it just be any day of the year.  

I really really really hate Valentine's day.  Besides, once you have kids, holidays are supposed to be all about the kids right??  I don't know.  Anyhow, I love my earring and necklace, and still can't believe Jon bought me something for Valentine's.  A very new thing for me.